Eve, Adam and the Fruit
Part II
In part I, the explanation was given why I believed I knew the cause of Eve's fall, and then I introduced the idea that what had unfolded in my marriage and separation was because I received the inner connection specifically to Eve. I did not receive why at that time. Much would have to unfold after our separation that I was to remain in the blind and I was not to know my future. This was a great test of faith. As I mentioned in a previous article, just weeks before my husband, Kim, announced his higher oneness to me with another woman, I had received a message from Archangel Michael.
In the Summit Lighthouse teachings, Archangel Michael's feminine counterpart was called Faith. Archangel Michael was the protector of the faith. I was out shopping when I received from within that I needed to pray for more faith. Unfortunately, I did not take his message seriously. In my arrogance, I questioned why I would need to pray for faith when I already felt I had a lot of faith. Thankfully, I made it through those years yet with many ups and downs in my faith, but not my faith in God, but faith in myself and my connection to the real Father in heaven, the real Son, and the real Holy Spirit.
Wisdom and Pride vs. Knowing
As mentioned in the previous article, right after our separation Kim wrote his articles on downward spirals and his realization of his own involvement in those spirals. What probably prompted him to write about this was his contemplation on what he believed about the community who did not support his decision and actions, and my leadership of them, and how we were caught in negative spirals as he had been on his journey over his lifetime. My inner guidance was to support the real Kim, but not his recent actions or attitude towards us. He was displaying towards me an uncharacteristic arrogance and meanness I had never witnessed before. I could not help but believe my inner guidance that this was not the real Kim. I would never believe any person of God would act that way towards another, let alone my husband towards me and the community that had supported and believed in him in the past.
One of the negative spirals he mentioned in his article happened in the period we were married and just before he began his website with his "ask Jesus". Kim said he felt responsibility for his workplace's profits and output and that is why he was caught in a negative spiral towards his superior who he believed was not doing a good job. He felt justified in criticizing her work and attitude about his performance. His conclusion, he wrote, was to let go of this false sense of responsibility and then he would be free of the inner conflict. The problem was that I saw it as the wrong conclusion and insight on his part. He could not see what he needed to be seen because he was not ready to see it. He himself wrote, "Why can we be stuck for a long time in a frame of mind that makes it absolutely impossible for us to see something, yet once we snap out of that state of mind, what we could not see before now seems completely obvious?"
What he really wanted was the recognition that his work was superior to his boss's. Yet he could not admit to himself that he had this pride. He was a technical writer and his work had to go through his boss before becoming acceptable for print. Any editor is not going to edit something the exact way another editor would. They know their grammar and acceptable form but there is leeway in style and honoring the purpose for what the writer is trying to convey. A technical writer prepares instruction manuals and other supporting documents to communicate technical and complex information so others may more easily understand. This woman had been hired for the job because she had the qualifications, while my husband had for only a short period of time been a technical writer. He had no degree or education in the area of publishing, only his personal skills. Yet he constantly criticized this boss as being mentally unstable and overly critical of his work and corrections and not fit for her position. He even communicated so to her superiors but got no response from them.
I knew for many years before our separation that Kim felt superior to me. I also believed in many ways he was. I believed he had superior wisdom, communication abilities, and personal Christhood. I did not necessarily feel inferior, just that he was above me in many God attributes and worldly talent. He absolutely believed he was superior in his communication skills, not only with people but in his inner communication with Jesus and other sources. Although this belief of his, and mine about him, had elements of truth to them, our viewpoints and beliefs in his talents were from the worldly perspective.
Education, knowledge, experience, and wisdom all play a part in giving us unique talents, yet beyond knowledge, education, experience, and wisdom is Knowing. Knowing what is true comes from God. It is a gift from God, a gift of the Holy Spirit. When my brother contracted Legionnaire's disease he went into a coma. While talking to my family I received within that my brother would recover. He was in a coma for a month and he did recover. One member of our spiritual group went into a coma from complications of an appendicitis operation. Several Summit Lighthouse members believed she had taken her ascension and was leaving this world. I received otherwise. I received the knowing that she would recover. She was in a coma for a year and did recover with only a slight loss of memory. I also shared previously that when my daughter snuck out of the house in the night to be with her boyfriend, I awoke the next morning and knew she was gone from the house.
Superior writing, lecturing, giving sermons and understanding the truth about life to share with others comes from this Knowing and the Holy Spirit. The soul within gives us the feminine qualities of compassion, intuition, empathy, vision and going within the heart to receive truth. The masculine side is one with God's will. Through our will, we have strength, determination, Being, harmony, unity and God desire, also from within the heart. You can see that we need both masculine and feminine qualities to be all that we can be while in embodiment.
Wisdom comes from the right use of our feminine and masculine attributes. The feminine qualities come from the right use of the heart and the masculine qualities come from the right use of the mind in conjunction with the heart. Wisdom does not belong exclusively to either the masculine or feminine. The more we sin and fall off the mark, the less wisdom we have.
True Love
I believe that without proper mother nurturance we may lose the ability to love compassionately and instead learn to love from our minds. A healthy mother's love for her child is not unconditional. Rather her love sets limits, disciplines and does not allow abuse to go unrestricted. When Kim and I were raising our daughter I had to set the limits and discipline. I loved my daughter dearly but she rebelled against me and even admitted one time that she hated me. She loved her father because he did not set limits and he did not believe he should. He philosophy was to let her experience her own mistakes. He was practicing unconditional love.
God's unconditional love is beyond this world. Therefore, it is beyond our ability to express it because we are not sinless creatures, we have not the totality of all the masculine and feminine qualities in perfection, but God does. His unconditional love (if that is what you want to call it) can only be expressed from the highest realm of heaven. This does not mean we cannot attempt to express unconditional love, but we must do so with setting limits and boundaries that are inherent in time and space. Most people who attempt to love unconditionally find that they become victims of abusive relationships or cannot express compassion without finding themselves in conditional love where some people evoke stronger feelings of love within them.
Most mothers realize that they love their children differently or they love one child more than another. One child may be demonstrative and another not and that is going to affect the way a mother can love each. And there sometimes can be personality conflicts that affect the way we love our children. You simply cannot love everyone the same as God loves us. When we are in a family, religious or social groups the people we find who conflict with our personalities provide us with an opportunity to grow in love in learning how to be compassionate, forgiving, and understanding.
As I mentioned at the beginning of this article that I was tested in my being able to give out love in the face of adversity. One of my children will not talk to me because of my belief in God and my God-centered life. Although I love him, I cannot have a relationship with him on his terms. He does not believe in God and will not tolerate my putting God first nor will he forgive me for making God the center of my life in the past. One time in the past I had put aside my inner relationship with God because my Guru (Elizabeth Clare Prophet) told me I was not communicating with my Higher Self or any master. Yet as I replayed my past with every spiritual experience I had with my inner communication, I came to the conclusion that without a doubt I knew all those "yes, that was real" checks on my inner board were too many to say that I had never communicated with heaven.
For two years I refused to listen to the inner voice. That experience was traumatizing to my spirit. I felt as if I was split in half, with the better half of me lost and alone and the other half of me cut off from reality. I was not going to have anyone take me away from my inner relationship with God again. Although I remained obedient to her direction for two years I still questioned her why this could have happened.
About two weeks after receiving her letter I wrote the Guru asking for forgiveness but also questioning her. If I have never sought the psychic realm in my life. patiently decreed and decreed for things to heal and change in my life, followed the masters and her directions in lectures and their dictations on how to be the Christ and overcome our psychologies and unreal self where we are encouraged to bond with our Christ self and listen within, and I felt the Holy Spirit and light numerous times, what was I doing wrong that I was accused of being psychic? I never did receive an answer. The following year she retired due to her Alzheimer's disease. How much she was cognizant of what was real and not when she wrote me the letter I will never know.
Spirits or God Communication?
For all the years immediately following Kim and my separation and divorce in 2011 communication was the central focus. Who was communicating God's word? Were there false teachings or teachers? Could we practice righteous judgment and help others and ourselves see the higher truth? Could we recognize where a so-called truth was actually separating us from God and His Scriptures? No doubt Kim believed he had the higher truth, and those who were with him were of the top 10% on the planet. Those with me were the accusers of the brethren because we spoke out against what we believed did go against Scriptures, against God's laws, and at that time, against the teachings the ascended masters had previously released. Communication with heaven was the key. Could any of us receive the true word of God and the Holy Spirit?
For myself, I had already been through this test of being accused of communicating with the lower spirits via psychic communication by my Guru. I had willfully been obedient and abstained from any inner communication for two years. I only broke that separation because I heard within a call to not be selfish and ignore the inner teacher. But I vowed to be more diligent than ever to protect myself from psychic interference and lower spirits. Although I had my vow, that did not preclude my being tested over and over again to recognize the false teachers and spirits that entered my mind and forcefield. For one, I was still an ascended master student turned teacher/guru. Not knowing I was still connected to lower spirits I could not protect myself, especially using the calls I was taught via the Summit Lighthouse.
The separation and divorce again placed me in the position of being accused of having lower communication skills. Kim would not openly accuse me, he would mock me and indirectly have his "masters" speak for him. Our community knew when he would speak of "accusers of the brethren" or those caught in "epic dramas" and "mental boxes" that he was speaking of us. Yet we also saw that these indirect accusations at us were what he outplayed in his own world, as already explained above. He was accusing us of doing what he was really doing.
I was frequently writing about Adam and Eve and the possible connection between what we were witnessing outplaying in our community and what might have happened in the Garden. Some do not believe that the Garden was a real story. But we have to remember that these stories in the Bible were sometimes told in an allegorical form. Jesus taught in parables comparing real life situations to things like wheat and tares. Tares look exactly like wheat so that you cannot tell the difference until harvest time. Jesus explained that the field is the world, the good seeds are the sons of the kingdom, but the tares are the sons of the wicked one. The enemy who sowed them is the devil, the harvest is the end of the age, and the reapers are the angels.
Eve in the Garden
Many people have attempted to interpret what the serpent represented in the Garden and what Eve did and what she ate and gave to Adam. The Bible does not say. I was not given what their act was or what they ate, I was given an entire life of living the remaking of Eve's choice in partaking of the fruit and the connection to wisdom. I was never given any connection to Eve until Kim left. Then suddenly Eve was there and I was suffering as Eve suffered, feeling her pain of being the one who lacked wisdom and the ability to discern between the word of God and the devil. Not only did I suffer in this regard, beginning with the first accusation from my Guru that I lacked wisdom and could not discern between my I AM Presence and the Ascended Masters and the psychic, Kim subtly gave me the message again and again that his communication with the "real Jesus" was above mine with what I received from Jesus and from within. I likened my first experience with the Guru to the dark night of the soul because it was very painful for me to be cut off from my inner communication and, I felt, from God.
Then, when I was led a year before our separation, along with a small group around me, to open up a school to use my healing and inner communication skills to help people be cut from their separation from God and their real selves, Kim wanted nothing more to do with me. He had already decided he had superior teachings to mine and my school was usurping his superiority and that was not to his liking. He had already found a young woman that he saw as a future companion that was more suitable to him than myself and he was jealous I received this direction from heaven and I had raised $125,000 for the school property down payment. Our separation quickly followed after he secured his relationship and future with this other woman.
When Adam was created before Eve, and Eve came along later as a helpmeet for Adam, there was a big adaptation that had to occur in Adam's life experience. It is hard to tell if this plane of existence they lived in was as physical as it is today. Eden implies it was an oasis environment where all was given for an idyllic experience. We have no perfect place like that on the planet today. There was apparently no suffering that leads to death as Adam lived almost 900 years. Yet after the fall Adam and Eve experienced a death in the form of separation from God. This might imply the plane was not physical as it is today.
Adam and Eve were not the first man and woman on the planet and I will explain the reasoning why in a future article. Genesis 1:27 states: "So God created man in His own image; in the image of God He created him; male and female He created them." Mankind was not created in the image of God, only in the likeness of God. The preceding verse states: "Then God said, “Let Us make man in Our image, according to Our likeness; let them have dominion over the fish of the sea, over the birds of the air, and over the cattle, over all the earth and over every creeping thing that creeps on the earth” Gen. 1:26.
The Man created in heaven that would later incarnate as the Man, Jesus, and then the man, Adam is created in the image of God. All of the rest of mankind were created with the potential to be as God intended for His creation. The man Adam was to help in this potential, but then he fell. Yet through Eve and his lineage mankind could be redeemed through the incarnated Christ Man, Jesus.
Eve's fall happened after Adam chose to interact with the created races already on the earth who were made in the likeness of God. God gave the man created in His image the free will choice to stay in His image or wander to the ways of the human race created with the potential to also be in Christ. They had not yet a Christ image in the earth to conform to. With the fall of the angels who were cast out of heaven, the race of man who also had free will were making choices that caused them to sin due to the fallen angels and their influence. Whether the fallen angels were in embodiment in human bodies or were influencing the minds of people from a spirit realm, they had the wherewithal to do so. Satan wanted God's people to fail in becoming the image of God and especially he wanted Eve, who was named "the mother of all living" to fail because through Eve, to Mary, would eventually arrive Christ. Yet Satan would not win in his plan with the birth, death, resurrection, and ascension of Jesus Christ.
When Adam was created he had the breath of life, the Holy Spirit, which mankind did not have. "And the Lord God formed man of the dust of the ground, and breathed into his nostrils the breath of life; and man became a living being" (Gen. 2:7). The earlier created race is the "natural man" who “cannot receive the things of God” (1 Corinthians 2:14). Again, I will explain more in a forthcoming article.
I mentioned previously that Adam was with Eve when she was conversing with the Serpent. "When the woman saw that the fruit of the tree was good for food and pleasing to the eye, and also desirable for gaining wisdom, she took some and ate it. She also gave some to her husband, who was with her, and he ate it" (Gen. 3:6).
Elliot's Bible commentary says of this verse:
The demeanour of Adam throughout is extraordinary. It is the woman who is tempted--not as though Adam was not present, as Milton supposes, for she has not to seek him--but he shares with her at once the gathered fruit. Rather, she is pictured to us as more quick and observant, more open to impressions, more curious and full of longings than the man, whose passive behaviour is as striking as the woman's eagerness and excitability.
Why would Eve seek to be wise? Could it be that Adam's contact with the outside race of people, especially the women, fed his need to be seen as wise and the chosen one himself? Did he by chance begin to identify himself as above those outside the Garden in a prideful way when many of those outside the Garden began to see him as a teacher and above them? Did he believe that Eve's ability to quickly make decisions and know what was right in moral contact and inner guidance disturb Adam who was more passive in nature and who did not want to express his will and Being that he was created to Be?
Our True Past History
The previous details with some of my personal experiences and what happened in my relationships, especially with Kim, have had the purpose of understanding what Eve experienced that laid the foundation for why she eventually fell. I am not saying I was or am the reincarnation of Eve or that Kim is the reincarnation of Adam. What I do know is that God wanted me to understand our connection to what really happened between Adam and Eve because they are the link to Christ and His birth and their story gives us the first death and separation from the Spirit of God.
Why would God not have inspired the Bible authors with more facts to be given us? As some have shared in their writings today, thousands of years ago it did not matter whether we understood how old the earth was or that a form of man lived before Adam. There was no evidence. Today it is different. Today we have Darwin, evolution, and evidence from science that tests our faith in what the Bible tells us is our history between our Creator and man. We have internet and worldwide communication. Today it matters that the truth to support Scripture is appearing. Archealogists have helped support many unprovable facts in the Bible as they uncover tablets and artifacts from ancient history.
Many souls might continue on in their faith regardless of the scientific evidence of today, yet books like Bart Ehrman's who began as a fundamentalist Christian and has now turned an agnostic atheist, have taken people from their truth and faith to doubt and rejection of Christ. Ehrman's books (30 in number) are very convincing. Our minds are susceptible to reasoning in a way that easily takes us from faith. After all, faith is not proveable. Faith is a gift from God. With faith we have more than any scientific proof. Faith is bigger than anything that can be proven in this world. Faith is our connection to God and God is Above all. Faith is holy and pure and glorious. Without faith we are empty and void of holiness.
Yet ignorance is our bane. None of us want to be seen as ignorant, stupid and naively trusting, such as we must do in connection to many of our religious beliefs. Imagine Eve trusting and pure, having tremendous faith in her connection to God and day after day, year after year giving the impression that she is unwise and ignorant in her trust and faith. How much would it take to break down her faith that what she has received from God was true? If Adam is not completely behind her, but actually is part of the breakdown of her reality with God, what ground does she have to stand on to resist the lie of the Serpent that "surely she will not die" and consuming the fruit of the forbidden tree she will be made wise? She sees Adam as the wise one in the family, after all, she was created from Adam the Bible says.
Maybe Adam wanted her to eat first because he could not make the decision to do so, not wanting to take responsibility, and that is why he was very willing to eat some right after her. After the LORD God questioned Adam as to what had happened, he immediately blamed Eve. “The woman whom You gave me, she gave me fruit from the tree, and I ate it" (Gen. 3:12).
All this understanding cannot be internalized and accepted as the possible truth of what happened in the Garden without understanding what the Bible said in Genesis 1 and why there are two creation stories. If Ehrman spent years studying the New Testament and never had understood an essential key that was in the beginning of Scripture from the Old Testament chapter 1, could he discern the truth in all of the following chapters?
The foundation of anything is what all else above it is built upon. A skewed foundation will eventually collapse and a new foundation must be built. Maybe it is time for Christians to build a new foundation that began in heaven and continues on earth today as the future for us, but in actuality is already done in heaven. It is there in Genesis. The Ascended Master teachings were good at opening our minds to the possibility of an ancient history that is not recorded in the Bible, such as the mythical civilizations of Lemuria and Atlantis. With the belief in that history, the mind is open to the idea that the life of man on earth did not begin with Adam. Yet how does one reconcile the Bible with this fact unless one understands what the Scripture is really saying?
Understanding our true history from the perspective of those who have attuned to the Holy Spirit will follow this article, and how this reveals what could have happened in the Garden with Adam, Eve, and the Serpent. Again, this is my perspective from my life's experiences and inner communication with heaven. The history and the divinely inspired interpretation of Genesis will be from other souls and their connection with the Holy Spirit. Together, I hope to convey a higher truth that will help us not only see how magnificent the Bible is as the inspired word of God, but also what is our role today in a world where women have been seen as objects to be used in many cultures and men have become trapped in sexual perversions that are so pervasive today that one of the largest growing income producer on the Internet today is porn.
It is claimed that according to statistics, "Porn Sites get more visitors each month than Netflix, Amazon and Twitter combined." Porn does not only involve men and women who are paid to have sex in front of the camera but children who are forced to. Trafficking women and children for sex is thriving. A recent article on the Rutherford Institute website called The Essence of Evil: Sex with Children Has Become Big Business in America was heartbreaking to read, "Children, young girls—some as young as 9 years old—are being bought and sold for sex in America. The average age for a young woman being sold for sex is now 13 years old."
The way we see women in their relationship to men is important for how we relate to our spouses and the opposite sex. Changing the way we communicate with each other and understanding what is the basis behind our beliefs about our role on earth is necessary to understand our motives for what we do and don't do. Choosing God over the fallen ways of the world is not always easy but the reward is great. Enlightenment helps toward that goal.
If ye love me, ye will keep my commandments. And I will pray the Father, and he shall give you another Comforter, that he may be with you for ever, even the Spirit of truth: whom the world cannot receive; for it beholdeth him not, neither knoweth him; ye know him: for he abideth with you, and shall be in you. (John 14:15-17)